One Day at a Time

Well, hello.  After yet another hiatus I'm back.  What happened?  Well, I've been discouraged.  I haven't been feeling as gung-ho about everything.  I haven't lost any weight...I haven't had a single good week since I started this journey and it has brought me down.

I spent more time on a treadmill these past two months than I have any other time in my life and I have nothing to show for it.  It's not a good feeling, but then again I haven't made a habit out of any of it.  Just when it stopped feeling like work and started feeling natural something major in my life would happen to keep me away from the gym for a while.  I've been having a hard time facing this blog because I felt like a sham--I have nothing good to contribute if I'm not playing by the rules.

Right?  Actually, not really.

It took me all weekend, but I finally convinced myself that despite my crummy start I actually still have something critical to contribute to this blog:  I'm just a normal joe.  I'm just like many of you reading this who have wanted to get fit for years but have never finally sucked it up and kept at it.  It's god damn hard!  It's not all fun!  But the rewards are tremendous...which is why I refuse to throw in the towel no matter how difficult it is for me to turn this hobby into a habit.

When I do reach my goals I hope it inspires someone just like me to do the same thing.  I've always been the kind of person who needs the timing to be juuust right, and I also have a very prominent "all or nothing" attitude about everything.  Getting thrown off just makes me want to quit instead of try harder...but I'm trying to change my outlook.  It's best to take things one day at a time.

Even though I keep saying this is more about long-term fitness than weight loss, I ain't gonna lie:  I'm packing at least 15 pounds that weren't there before that I desperately want to go away.  And I hop on the scale *every* day hoping I'll find it melting away.  And every time I see that it's still there, it greatly discourages me and makes me want to give up.  But this week I'm going to do something different...I'm going to focus on "today," every day.  The goal for the day is easy:  eat nice and exercise.  And by nice I mean avoid sugar and fat, watch the portions, get lots of whole foods in.  And by exercise I mean g.d. exercise, even if it is just a walk around the block...whatever I can squeeze in for the day.

So, thanks for sticking with me.  I hope there's someone out there who has at some point felt like me and I hope to wind up with some great results, despite this rough beginning.